big advent!

Hey its me I don’t know why but I am busy lately. The last two weeks, know its Monday and I have had my 24th birthday last Sunday. Which I ended up going to church in the morning after church and finished my studying for my conformation which was this Sunday. Anyway as it had finished we can relax know after two busy weeks with nothing planned till Christmas.

On my birthday my grandad cooked me Chinese which was sweet and sour chicken with egg fried rice and vegetable spring rolls, after dinner we had leman cake which was lovely and I opened my cards and pressies then I went to bed for the night.

As my conformation day was a arriving and it was a long preparing day, I got my nails done and hair and makeup done and my friend carol picked me up and we left for church. it was a lovely night with friend’s and family for the advent and I truly apricate everyone who showed up, there was so much love and support there which was a wonderful time and looking forward to my future know and a more positive person hopefully.

thank you for everything !

trusting

Why is it hard to trust people I feel like every time I do, it hurts so I gust keep myself on my own these days. I have this my best friend and last night we had a massive argument and I can’t remember what it was all about.

Its weird I have all these emotions all at once and I black out.can’t remember that main feeling I felt in the first place or the reason why the argument started in the first place. I just can’t help and feel like I mess up everything but one positive thing came I didn’t self-harm as I was in the argument and I dealt with it ok I guess. Anyway back to the argument I finally realised it was just my friend was worried about me and I was maybe a bit stubborn. So the lesson I learned today is never too quick to judge a situation deferntly if the one person you rely on and trust better then anyone in the world won’t push you in a front of a bus they say something before they do lol…

this is me …

Hey it’s me, anyway, I just wanted to interduce my self but I don’t know if anyone is seeing this but I am Victoria but everyone calls me Vicky. I m 23 years old and a full-time carer for my grandad whilst studying in childcare, in my spare time I also volunteer in a cafe thereby and see my friends and family.
you think I am your everyday young adult but I have been diagnosed with my vane closing up slowly and I have a learning condition called global delay and dyslexia and just a year ago got diagnosed with a personality disorder or short term is bpd.

so for the next year i am going to wright eaveryday the high the lows, the beauty and gust the ugly and we can do this together noone should be on there own, so if you need someone to talk to i can be there if you like?